I'm not giving in this time. It's not like I'm overweight but I feel SO fucking fat. Fat and ugly. I look in the mirror and I'm disgusted.
I'm 22 years old, almost 5ft 4", and I weight 8st 8lbs. I was underweight 'naturally' (well kind of... I never worried about my weight) when I was growing up. I hit 18/19 and was around 7st 11lbs and that's the way I liked it. I have to get back to that.... Being skinny was always my 'thing'. I stood out and I never even had to try to stay that way; it was just how I was.
Anyway I'm bloody well going to shift these pounds, beginning tomorrow (usual cliche but this time I'm sticking). I figured if I blog about it it might boost my willpower somehow and I'll be less inclined to give up after day 2 or even the first few hours.
My birthday is near the start of June. I want to be happy with my weight by the time I'm 23. Here goes.